Hello.

~Grandmothers~

For some reason..theres people in life that earn a lot from us,thing such as trust,responsiblity indepandence,and love.But people such as granmothers don't need that,they allready have all the love that we can give.We know we can alway trust them when our parents and us don't  get along.We always know no matter what they'll try to be there for us,as well as we will always have a sholder to cry on when we need to..because we know one person of all will be there our grandmothers.Not that life with grandmothers are sweet ..caures theres time where we don't get along,don't see eye to eye.Theres times when we get mad at them for saying we have it easyer ..but we don't see it because we think life at the moment is hard.And just because we have the technology doesin't make things easyer for things..but at the end we make up ..with a smile just huging them with all the strenght that we have ,and we love them will all the love that fits in our hearts and  much more.No  matter what we end up in life or what kind of education we get frist of all it starts with our grandmothers,i don't think theres a person that would like to be/have a grandmother.I know one thing i will never forget is summers with my grandmother.It wasin't all pretty ..scrubbing trying to wash clothes with your hands  in the heat..or duign yard work for 4 to something hours isin't wuite easy.I guess thats why iam more of a tomboy..and not some girly girl.I know now iam spoiled don't work as hard..but  hey.But i didiin't mind so much of the work..after a long day i  felt like i was worth soemthing,that i did something useful that day.And riding your bike for a few miles to get to the store..was so much fun..the fresh air....the wind playing in your hair.And church hwere i acctioly attended church though it was strick and lasted for a long time...i was always a part of it.And acctioly got into listening storys from the bible the times that i wasin't spacing out on my usual day dreams.And of cause seeing my first crush was always fun.Seeign my best friends..me and my causing always duing girl stuff.. Just havign someone to bond with was always fun..and at that time me and my cousing where so close i could have told her everything.I guess nto seeign somone for 4 years can change things and move people aport.She was the greates person..blah she got me into smoking not that great but its not like i said anything..so we both where't golden.I loved it all all the summers good and bad all those memories..all the tears laughter and everything.It makes me sad to think about it how i miss my childhood.But i think what sadens me the most that i left right in the middle and i lost so many years of it.I missed so many important events.Is like going into a commo for cople years weakign up everyones grown up changed moved on ..and even some had forgotten you.But all those memories ..i guess getting just a bit of them is enough.Its just so fucking sad that the person that gave me so many advise..so much knowlage..so much of my memories..and was there for me all my life..is sick..and is all alone and if she needs me i can't be there for her like she has been there for me all this time .I just wish things worked otu allright so my mom woulin't have to cry or worrie bout my grandmother and i wish my grandmother was ok.I know times comes for everyone...but i lost and i'm losign everyone i love..can't i at least hold onto  her?Isin't it enough that i lost so much..why do i always have to give up so much?
Love Keyeah